Have you ever just sat there and looked back on a year and realized that you hated it yet loved it at the same time? Well, that would be me, tonight. I hated 2013, yet I love some of the changes it brought to my life. This year started out great as I had just spent 3 amazing weeks with Christina helping her after she had baby Emery. I got back into the flow of school and had even been promoted at work. However I soon learned that school, management position, internship and training for a half marathon was a lot of work! I became a stressed mess and was not happy with how I was handling everything. I survived though and I was proud for getting everything done. School ended and that brought about me moving into a new place. My birthday rolled around a week later and resulted in my relationship with my best friend ending. I am lucky enough to have an amazing brother who lives close by who let me escape to his house for a few days to deal with it all. Summer turned out to be great in some aspects with vacations and trips to see my family. Work sucked but I had a job and was grateful for it. School started again in August and stressful life was back in swing. Only this time it was a FULL MARATHON I was training for!!! I didn't train as much as I should have but I did it! It felt great to cross the finish line!!! Over Thanksgiving Don got Christina and I tickets to WICKED and it was awesome!!! Such a great show! I got to get out of St. George for 3 weeks for Christmas break to spend time with family and it was much needed and a blast.
This year has taught me a lot. I had really close relationships end and learned the meaning of true friendship. It was a struggle and I don't wish this experience or the pain on anyone but I know that Heavenly Father has truly helped me through it. I became a lot closer to my wonderful siblings through it all and I have felt God's love for me. I know that He knows who I am and is there for me whenever I need him to. I have felt the comfort from the Spirit and know that if those relationships hadn't ended I would not be where I am. I'm not where I pictured I would be in my life, but I am learning to love every day. Let go of past pains and move forward.
In the words of Rascal Flatt,
"I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm moving on"
I look forward to 2014 and hopeful all that it can have in store! Here's some pics of the good times of 2013!
